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himself here

himself here
and now where he
meant to be otherwise

as he had always
meant to be otherwise

meaning to be otherwise
had come to be
expected of him

Daily Poems
- he dreams a lot July 21, 2015
- A wall of fire, July 20, 2015
- When I knew I July 19, 2015
- Don’t listen to July 18, 2015
- Was it enough July 16, 2015
- Awkward and foolish the woman who’ll July 15, 2015
- The negative shows all reversed July 14, 2015
- Cheese dripping from the July 13, 2015
- What’s to save his life? July 12, 2015
- Flung out of doors by the latest statistics… July 11, 2015
- I had never thought to be July 10, 2015
- When the cloud of stuff blew out July 9, 2015
- “My mama always said”, the orphan got July 8, 2015
- another morning on its way… July 7, 2015
- another day of plans July 6, 2015
- time over there and time over there July 5, 2015
- an open body a heart that’s July 4, 2015
- through the halls of wisdom July 3, 2015
- another non-event has claimed us July 2, 2015
- Haiku July 1, 2015
- three in the morning, June 30, 2015
- All those faces in all those photographs, June 29, 2015
- time to begin again June 28, 2015
- all these years gone by with June 27, 2015
- This language I June 26, 2015
- an idea never meant June 25, 2015
- today, I’ll say, is as June 24, 2015
- an overture of love June 23, 2015
- tomorrow always came June 22, 2015
- Haiku June 21, 2015
- anytime’s the time for me June 20, 2015
- too late now June 19, 2015
- all that saves my life June 18, 2015
- Tomorrow I’ll let it matter June 17, 2015
- ampersanding right along, June 16, 2015
- This Begins April June 15, 2015
- all that rhapsodizing June 14, 2015
- In a room overheated, … June 13, 2015
- all that can’t be helped June 12, 2015
- there are other versions June 11, 2015
- all the meat of all those bodies June 10, 2015
- opposite ends of the room June 9, 2015
- All these years gone by and she comes up with June 8, 2015
- mind going every which way while my feet head north June 7, 2015
- again, it’s one too many again, listening to the poets, June 6, 2015
- in it, caught to dreams… June 5, 2015
- a willow flute to call love forth June 4, 2015
- the wind spun the sign June 3, 2015
- A wall of fire June 2, 2015
- Self Evident June 1, 2015
- Haiku May 31, 2015
- a solvent buyer appears May 30, 2015
- who is she May 29, 2015
- the telephone rang and May 28, 2015
- as many as they could manage… May 27, 2015
- Haiku May 26, 2015
- white rooms May 25, 2015
- the treasure’s May 24, 2015
- a seaside like butter, May 23, 2015
- wherever she was, May 22, 2015
- the street stays May 21, 2015
- a screen door into the backyard May 20, 2015
- when all felt lonely May 19, 2015
- the story had hoped May 18, 2015
- a plethora of named May 17, 2015
- where and how did that man live May 16, 2015
- The sleeping dog jerks its legs, May 15, 2015
- a rambling discourse, loosed free into the May 14, 2015
- what’s to save his life, jeopardy surrounds May 13, 2015
- the prison stretches in the sun, May 12, 2015
- A painted face on canvas, May 11, 2015
- What would you May 10, 2015
- The photographs have all been snapped. May 9, 2015
- a night redolent May 8, 2015
- what passes for linen May 7, 2015
- the picture is of things to eat May 6, 2015
- Haiku May 5, 2015
- what pap we cook to eat May 4, 2015
- the past no longer exists as it once did, May 3, 2015
- a mirror on the wall shows May 2, 2015
- what are we given… May 1, 2015
- the outside view becomes April 30, 2015
- a mirror on the wall April 29, 2015
- what is it do, April 28, 2015
- They turn on a dime, insist April 27, 2015
- a man’s home is his April 26, 2015
- We were so short April 25, 2015
- the mundane world must be our joy April 24, 2015
- A museum, a gallery, whatever April 23, 2015
- A long hot summer continues, April 22, 2015
- Smiling he backs away, fading April 21, 2015
- a list of losses, each April 20, 2015
- trouble and hope April 19, 2015
- who lives next door, April 18, 2015
- a starnose mole April 17, 2015
- subject to laws she April 16, 2015
- a little thought all on its own April 15, 2015
- sometimes April 14, 2015
- I’ll never be April 13, 2015
- a hushed silence, April 12, 2015
- I’ll tell you what I think of me April 11, 2015
- a harmony that’s more April 10, 2015
- slim and tidy April 9, 2015
- I’ll get it just right April 8, 2015
- an air of April 7, 2015
- Haiku April 6, 2015
- Being in love means April 5, 2015
- imagination’s puny flame is all April 4, 2015
- She has no reason not to jump April 3, 2015
- work in silence April 2, 2015
- the house woke April 1, 2015
- scrumptious, there’s a word… March 31, 2015
- reconcile ongoing time March 30, 2015
- Ignore the loss, the orphan decided, now March 29, 2015
- black and white, coffee and cream, March 28, 2015
- a great day March 27, 2015
- bring thought to the event March 26, 2015
- clean sheets, white wrinkled cotton, March 25, 2015
- In the parlor they spoke March 24, 2015
- reality is not enough March 23, 2015
- Sunk in winter I thought March 22, 2015
- the villa is closed now, not open to the public, March 21, 2015
- with a sense of relief he March 20, 2015
- will you keep it down, please, March 19, 2015
- Time passes as if March 18, 2015
- the roots must finally March 17, 2015
- satin and silk March 16, 2015
- put yourself in graceful posture March 15, 2015
- I think of your hair March 14, 2015
- A girl in a green dress looks both ways March 13, 2015
- I work here, in this town. March 12, 2015
- humming a tune under her breath March 11, 2015
- And now, to begin again. March 10, 2015
- Cheese dripping from March 9, 2015
- I read the paper March 9, 2015
- We talk and laugh and drink March 8, 2015
- the explanation March 7, 2015
- skin of thin paper March 6, 2015
- Plan to be March 5, 2015
- I thought if I just worked hard enough March 4, 2015
- Her voice when she spoke was March 3, 2015
- going forward stays March 2, 2015
- her letter arrived March 1, 2015
- give words February 28, 2015
- a footpath crosses the field there February 27, 2015
- All those men February 26, 2015
- drowning, a hand above the water February 25, 2015
- her heart was mollified February 24, 2015
- in time I’ll do what February 23, 2015
- the ceiling leaked long ago February 22, 2015
- With fine compliments we parted. February 21, 2015
- we live invisible February 20, 2015
- the inevitable road February 19, 2015
- simple furniture February 18, 2015
- real things in the picture, February 17, 2015
- mirrors change February 16, 2015
- I think to live February 15, 2015
- her final words were I think I’ll start over, February 14, 2015
- darkness carves the day away, February 13, 2015
- all the world adores itself February 12, 2015
- a fool who’ll February 11, 2015
- looking for natives to see how they do it, February 10, 2015
- history lives its life… February 9, 2015
- I thought if I could February 8, 2015
- look back to this moment February 7, 2015
- I’m someone else now never to return February 6, 2015
- I prefer everything February 5, 2015
- his answers arrived February 4, 2015
- goodby floats in the air, a string February 3, 2015
- Died young, well, still alive, February 2, 2015
- ceremonies over February 1, 2015
- a lethal smile January 31, 2015
- any day is a day like January 30, 2015
- colors are enough, January 29, 2015
- he could have told her he January 28, 2015
- I’ll just go now, January 27, 2015
- Look in the mirror. January 26, 2015
- sit on the verandah January 25, 2015
- we stopped at a corner January 24, 2015
- They all pinned their hopes January 23, 2015
- such heartbreak January 22, 2015
- the brilliant dead cut loose by time, January 21, 2015
- two lovers, or three, January 20, 2015
- work in silence January 19, 2015
- yesterday’s left-overs January 18, 2015
- what’s below would eat us alive January 17, 2015
- they don’t need me there… January 16, 2015
- sun batters January 15, 2015
- ownership and January 14, 2015
- here’s a job and there’s a boss… January 13, 2015
- In pursuit of clues January 12, 2015
- our happy days came January 11, 2015
- the least phrase will do, January 10, 2015
- you can’t, while planning the future, January 9, 2015
- time past rides heavy and heavier January 8, 2015
- Spring hovers to arrive January 7, 2015
- more and more the man January 6, 2015
- if the sun would shine January 5, 2015
- I won’t bore you with all January 4, 2015
- here comes morning and January 3, 2015
- On the verge of changing January 2, 2015
- A dreamer, sweet and tender boy, January 1, 2015
- every morning gets later and later December 31, 2014
- He doesn’t think it December 30, 2014
- how long ago did this young man December 29, 2014
- I won’t be subjective anymore. I’ll hustle December 28, 2014
- include it in your plans, December 27, 2014
- My vicious December 26, 2014
- One morning I grabbed December 25, 2014
- reflections in glass December 24, 2014
- Troubled by insistence December 23, 2014
- the airport turned on this morning, December 22, 2014
- songs are every kind of mood, December 21, 2014
- she has no idea of the terms December 20, 2014
- pity the December 19, 2014
- news tells us the stories are going on, December 18, 2014
- meaning to do December 17, 2014
- light enters the western sky, December 16, 2014
- I meant it to be different, December 15, 2014
- Hold firm to what your heart December 14, 2014
- he published his life in December 13, 2014
- Flung out of doors by the latest December 12, 2014
- Dream dreams December 11, 2014
- “Barring accident, which seems December 10, 2014
- disaster alters the December 9, 2014
- frightful engravings in old medical books, December 8, 2014
- he stands making faces in the mirror, seeing all those December 7, 2014
- blind wisdom gropes December 6, 2014
- I had a fight with her and I won. December 5, 2014
- It’s often like December 4, 2014
- pertinence and brevity, December 3, 2014
- My second plan is to forget the first December 2, 2014
- promise to be as if it never December 1, 2014
- Sun shines November 30, 2014
- The traveler, carving a November 29, 2014
- whoops, almost got November 28, 2014
- water seeps hidden November 27, 2014
- there’s a kind of man who’ll November 26, 2014
- the future that knows November 25, 2014
- She firmly put the cake back in the tin. November 24, 2014
- on the shores of a distant lake memory makes a place November 23, 2014
- Let me show you the garden November 22, 2014
- It’s nearly dark November 21, 2014
- he sings November 20, 2014
- fresh smells lift November 19, 2014
- dream a dream November 18, 2014
- All this. And more to come. November 17, 2014
- when your friend November 16, 2014
- Frightful stories November 15, 2014
- how brilliantly other people November 14, 2014
- I can’t think why he needs it she said November 13, 2014
- it is late November 12, 2014
- one, two, three, numbers seem so simple, November 11, 2014
- Specimen days November 10, 2014
- They sit in their same old November 9, 2014
- you thought it would November 8, 2014
- Whenever she asks him a question November 7, 2014
- watching Thelonius Monk get interrupted by his November 6, 2014
- time to get to work now, time November 5, 2014
- The only time I bust November 4, 2014
- strawberries for the guests November 3, 2014
- Silence ate the city, November 2, 2014
- No I wouldn’t, November 1, 2014
- Me and you and them too October 31, 2014
- landscape holds October 30, 2014
- in a hurry October 29, 2014
- I could have led October 28, 2014
- here comes the muffin man October 27, 2014
- green shimmer of satin and October 26, 2014
- Frightful stories October 25, 2014
- dreaming inhabits days October 24, 2014
- beauty skin deep October 23, 2014
- A lady went a walking October 22, 2014
- And when you October 21, 2014
- capture that thought October 20, 2014
- Every day I’ll dance October 19, 2014
- He used to October 18, 2014
- hunters with fierce eyes October 17, 2014
- invent your self into summers October 16, 2014
- Meaning clears the way through nonstop October 15, 2014
- now the ozone’s gone the chatter October 14, 2014
- Invent larger than life-size October 13, 2014
- I’ll just wait here October 13, 2014
- over the edge and through the woods October 12, 2014
- something sweet and tender October 11, 2014
- something in my throat October 10, 2014
- the fish for which October 9, 2014
- the soft sweet dream October 8, 2014
- An open mind, a flap October 7, 2014
- Where do men get October 6, 2014
- Young men fire their guns and join the plot, October 5, 2014
- when I remember, October 4, 2014
- Villains among us, spewing pap October 3, 2014
- The turn of time sits October 2, 2014
- the butler with the poison in his pantry October 1, 2014
- memories like a picnic September 30, 2014
- If I begin to September 29, 2014
- I am because I think, that’s September 28, 2014
- he dreams a lot September 27, 2014
- examine September 26, 2014
- plans were never September 25, 2014
- close your eyes and September 24, 2014
- all those books on September 23, 2014
- Atlas holds the September 22, 2014
- Do you know September 21, 2014
- elegant and vivacious, with September 20, 2014
- hard to know what to say September 19, 2014
- here’s a chair September 18, 2014
- if lists September 17, 2014
- out of this blank September 16, 2014
- the absence September 15, 2014
- pretty little September 14, 2014
- tired of all that claims me, September 13, 2014
- 1 Your interesting article September 12, 2014
- when you’re troubled there’s September 11, 2014
- Vexed by aching thought September 10, 2014
- That moment of gathering, September 9, 2014
- She said, September 8, 2014
- one by one September 7, 2014
- look me in the eye and tell me September 6, 2014
- I mean to return to my body September 5, 2014
- He went out for cigarettes. September 4, 2014
- Feeling adores itself September 3, 2014
- clear or murky waters, September 2, 2014
- a dream in abeyance September 1, 2014
- time to get up August 31, 2014
- she wants a commitment August 30, 2014
- mysteries were not meant to be opaque, August 29, 2014
- I think to do it August 28, 2014
- give the tree you bought August 27, 2014
- any way gets you to August 26, 2014
- Fear justifies itself. Worrying August 25, 2014
- His rapid plunge to mediocrity August 24, 2014
- just don’t stop, August 23, 2014
- Set out August 22, 2014
- there’s nothing wrong August 21, 2014
- When I dream of you it’s August 20, 2014
- Unlucky hope holds back the August 19, 2014
- these premises have August 18, 2014
- sweet girls in summer dresses August 17, 2014
- moral and ethical vigor August 16, 2014
- I never relished August 15, 2014
- in this latest morning August 14, 2014
- soothe the pain in your August 13, 2014
- my uncle who flew kites from the nearby hill, August 12, 2014
- She bought tight clothes August 11, 2014
- the morning mist is almost gone August 10, 2014
- Without fear I imagine you August 9, 2014
- what can I bring you to show I care, August 8, 2014
- persons of this August 7, 2014
- the telephone rings once August 6, 2014
- The poles it all suspends between August 5, 2014
- Struggle is the story of humankind. August 4, 2014
- remember, memory is August 3, 2014
- My miseries and my joys August 2, 2014
- kick the old man who sits August 1, 2014
- in the dark of the night July 31, 2014
- I never thought to be July 30, 2014
- gutless figures July 29, 2014
- Any plan makes the next thing July 28, 2014
- flying in the world’s worst plane July 27, 2014
- hey diddle diddle a guy July 26, 2014
- lamented history July 25, 2014
- Nightmare carries July 24, 2014
- the rage of the prophet became excessive July 23, 2014
- sum it up, July 22, 2014
- seeing how his life July 21, 2014
- The waiting paid off, the girl’s July 20, 2014
- the “arts” described into being July 19, 2014
- We want the cake intact, July 18, 2014
- you’ve got to cut the July 17, 2014
- It’s so precious July 17, 2014
- a sausage case, stuffed and walking, July 16, 2014
- any night now I’ll July 15, 2014
- Days go by without more between us than July 14, 2014
- five past eight on a thursday morning, July 13, 2014
- He wants July 12, 2014
- I can’t remember now July 11, 2014
- In a back room July 10, 2014
- the place is small but July 9, 2014
- tepid soup and July 8, 2014
- Sitting on the July 7, 2014
- no more living July 6, 2014
- I’ll go again some day soon July 5, 2014
- I don’t have anything July 4, 2014
- Foolishness speaks, July 3, 2014
- dead image, a lie, meant to lie July 2, 2014
- carried into progressive July 1, 2014
- for years the cards June 30, 2014
- himself here June 29, 2014
- Dream a little dream, June 28, 2014
- I think to myself June 27, 2014
- in an airplane high above us June 26, 2014
- Just when it looked all over June 25, 2014
- my thought is June 24, 2014
- One thought June 23, 2014
- something sweet and tender June 22, 2014
- with a short poem June 21, 2014
- when thought does not guard the gate June 20, 2014
- the mind lets June 19, 2014
- that word June 18, 2014
- she hums a simple endless sound June 17, 2014
- never having meant June 16, 2014
- imaginary invalids June 15, 2014
- I hadn’t thought to live June 14, 2014
- and live a life June 13, 2014
- caught in the years, June 12, 2014
- Early winter June 11, 2014
- He sliced fresh bread. June 10, 2014
- Jagged and oddly June 9, 2014
- I will not always be this ill-equipped June 8, 2014
- I wish I had June 7, 2014
- ladies and gentlemen who didn’t June 6, 2014
- Permanently present. June 5, 2014
- something total, June 4, 2014
- one last word before I close, June 3, 2014
- a cottage industry, June 2, 2014
- a chosen confidant, June 1, 2014
- A bridal train, May 31, 2014
- a brown dress, a blue dress, May 30, 2014
- spring will come, April 23, 2014

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